STOP breathing, STOP careing!!!

Little girl sittingin the dark corner.

With nothing but darkness and dispear.

She longed for somebody to come take her away.

Life nor love would come ear her for the know she shal shane them away.

But she wasnt always like this, u see it was upon the day when the world

stopped breating and careing,that she too stopped breathing nd careing.

She no longer felt emotion like we do, she felt pain...... that was it pain and lonleyness...

Oh watch how she become insane with her lonlyness that creps up behind herand drawns

her in its sarrows.

Shetrys to run as darkness slowly crreps up behind her faster then she can run and then.....

it swallows her hole draining all te life out of her.

She stopped breathing!!!

She stopped careing!!!

For he world to stopped careing and breathing!

Not to be r to be?!?!?!?

He writes nothing about me or our past relationships on his blog yet he writes about other relationships and close friends...... what does that mean? He says i mean the world to him yet it doesnt seem so......

He says that he will TRY be there for me but yet for the other girls his always there for them?!?!?!

Am i old news?

DOes he even care anymore.... he says he does but saying somehing is one thing and following through with it is another!

I guess we live too different lives nw and...... i wish i could say we two different people but we nt we both love the same music, we have a song, we even have the same ideas?!?!!

I dont understand..... he has no idea how much hemeans to be.. a friend?....a lover? i dont care i ust want to know at least that he hinks about meee.....

AGGG its driving me crazy... his driving me crazy!!!!

What do i do? si and wait like i always do? orsay something?

Look what u made me do?!?!?!?

Look what u got me doing listening to stupid love songs! I cant get u out my head....... i dream about u at night and dureing the day i think about u every chance i get!! Id scream ur name off the highest roof top ever but then people would know who u are......... I walked out ur doors along time ago and i left my heart with u! I thought maybe i should go fetch it but then i realized myheart is happy with u and well im happy with it being with u too! U keep it warm, safe and well u give it that fuzzy feeling ive longed to feel again! SO here have my heart..... take it and keep it forever!!!!!

HAHAHA

My best friend is a guy(lol so what!!!!) he rocks even though we dated and it didnt workout TWICE but yet were closer then ever! We have been with each othere through relationships, heartbreaks, being totally insane, even when a close friend died he was there for me, nw with my op and all his here too! Funny thing happened he foned me last nit and we agreed on somethings so he sad FONE HIGH FIVE and i was like wait wat the wat was suppost to be a FONE HIGH FIVE turned out to be a FONE EAR HIG FIVE lol!!!!


well id like to dedicate this to MISHA my bestest friend in the hole wide world!

The coolest song ever!

Im running out of patients coz cant believe what the hell im hearing and speaking of hell it dont compare to this heat that im feeling

I love u too much it shows all my emotions go out of control oh woah woah

Good for u bad for me when i can hardly see from the tears that flow oh woah

cant forget to breath slow count from one to ten with my eyes closed coz ladies take it in and get comp oh oh oh sure before i lose it get comp oh oh oh sure.............

This song is how i feel and is how i take life one step at a time and breathing slow!

I thought i had found him?!!?!?!

I met this guy{charl} while i was dateing his brother{john} (weird? i know). His brother ended up dumping me shortly after that...... said he thinks its not working..... blah blah blah!!!!! So a year goes by and i decide i wanna join scouts which i did and john and charl were there......... two years go by and me and charl get to know each other and i see is NOTHING like his brother. we get closer..... so close we decided maybe we should be seriouse and date..... hahahahah what a joke that was!!!! he then told me his parents cant know about us and i thought okay?!?!?!?! but i know his parnts are really strict. we decie to eas them into knowing by planning a date and Monday goes by no fone call...... Tuseda goes by still no call and i start feeling misreable....... Wednesday and guess what a fone call but not all the information( its cool he still has tommrow)......Thursday goes by NO fone call {forget it!!!!!!} I CRY!!!!

After all this time thinking he was different and he would do something for me......... well i gess it was all a big joke to him !!!!!! NOT FUNNY!

Parents!!!!

We cant live with thm and we cant live without them.......... omw omw omw!!!!!!!!! So angry i just wat to......... scream at the top of m lungs ITS NOT FAIR! Why cant I? What now? I know you have no idea what im talking about but I dont want to say in fear people think its good or that i shouldnt be moaning but it all started with one of my friends who came to visit me and he decided to bring his friend (they oth in matric) and we had a great time just chilling. Then a week later he invited me to his birthday party.... i understand why they didnt let me go to that becaue im so young and well my time for partying will still come;p!!!!! But then my friends friend inited me to his matric dance becausse he thinks im cute and well he doesnt have a date..... so hat do i do i brag about it to my friends and they all think its such an houner and well so do i duh!!!! My mom said mybe so that put my hopes up moe then my dad was like NO omw crush me why dont u then i was like why then he said no cuz of a GUT feeling...... ag damit grrrrrrrr its so NOT fair so after that i came in my room then my dad came into the room and i said ya and he was like no im just coming to spread love ag please im upset with him cant he just bugger off honestly then i just ignored him and then his like im aking sure u dont write aything about me in a diary i was like naa jst my blog

HELLO ITS ME

After a few days of feeling really crappy and misreable....... just like the weather, i decided i should stop this noncence and be me again so i actually ate today and got out the house and i just finished exercising and nw im eating pudding! yes i am enjoyig it! I never dated someone as long as i dated donovan and now after we broke up i didnt know what to do with myself........ i didnt want to be alone sooo this hole holiday ive had someone over every singel day so i wouldnt be alone but enough is enough time to find the sexy singel independnt me! And hey shes coming slowly but surly heheheheh IM BACK!!!!! Did ya miss me?

U think!

I thought i had found him.... the one!!! He made me happy and i could be myself around him... well thats what i thought till i realized he didnt make me happy. I was just ..... well fooling myself and tying too fool others but the truth is i was hurting inside! And well realized i couldnt be my real self around him....i felt like i always had to wear make up to look pretty or he wouldnt like me anymore . And i felt as if i always had to please him ........... I knowsince i was small i always dreamt about prince charming... never thought about my heartbeing broken a million times!!!!!! But no matter how many times my heart has been broken i get back up and move on looking for my prine charming.... and maybe just maybe one day i wil find him and he will sweap me of my feet or maybe ill be singel and get my heart broken so many imes i wriyte a book become famous and well warn all those other girls ot there about evil guys lol but either way im happy becauseim a strong independent woman yes a guy would be nice but i love knowing i an do it myself ......... concer the world all on her own... imlike pink and the brain put togther!!!!

6 impossiable things!

They say if your imagination is really good you can think of 6 impossiable things before breakfast...........1. All teachers wiil disapear from the face of the planet. 2. I will turn blue with pink toes and a orange tongue. 3. Parents will let all kids do what they want. 4. Animals can talk and we can understand them. 5. Ill marry Johnny Depp one day. 6. I have a dragon in my backyard as my pet. now your turn..........

MEEEEE

I heard that a blog is were you write your feelings your emostions your ideas your reactions and so on.............for me its a place were i can write wat i cant say out loud, its a place were i can get away from reality and just escape from all the trouble in my life!!!!!!!!! So when i write on my blog yes sometimes ill write abwt anger and fustration maybe even alittle of confusion but its all that im feeling at that present moment!!!!! Maybe just maybe ill write abwt happyness or even romance because i will only write alittle because love doesnt last long with me and once love is gone ive lost that smile on my face and that fuzzy feeling in my stomache but dont forget ill pick myself right back up and move on cause im strong enough. I will sometimes quote things in my posts but thats just it ..... i live by them! And now and then i shull write abwt school or my family or even maybe the ant crawling up my leg but dont forget ill never be boring and if you need a laugh then ya sure come and read but sometimes i spill wat im feeling and if you dont like dat well then this isnt the blog for you!!!

Boys BOYS Boys.....

Oh my word i remember when i was in preschool and I didnt like boys because they had cooties........eeeeewwwww!!!

Then priamry school came and and boys started looking cute but yet they still had cooties...... then grade 6 and 7 comes and you start seeing guys in a new way.... they cute and they grab your attention. Then you start high school and you see boys in brand new eyes, they cute, tall, more mature....... Dont be fooled by there looks and fake nice personallity, they are just hidding how caniving and evil they really are!!!!! BUT not all guys are like that there are one in a million guys that are nice and reall sweet but the other 99% are out to get one night stands and break girls hearts........ So girls dont wear your hearts on your sleves cause guys will just come up and snatch it or use it to wipe their noses!!!!! To end this on a good note i just want to say that have fun and date but dont let it get to a point were you loose everyone you love for that one guy! party hard but becarful!!!!!!!!!

Waiting........

As my lips touched yours i felt that wounderful feeling come out of me like a flam that was hiden under my skin just waiting, waiting to escape........

I took a deep breathe and bit my lip as you gave me the best and warmest hug saying "till next time", now i sit in intesipation waiting, waiting for YOUR LOVING TOUCH!

Now i sit at night woundering if ill ever see u again, if our lips should ever touch again and if ill ever be able to feel that warmth from your body!!!!!!! Im going crazy........my lips are getting dry and my body is getting cold....... i suggest you hurry before i slip away into withdraw syntoms. Then if you dont come ill move on to someone else, but ill always remmber your lips of love and your body of warmth and those words "till next time" will always be in my head! Inside of me will always be hope that you will walk through those doors...... even though i know you wont!!!!!

DONT FORGET ME BABY BECAUSE I WONT FORGET YOU!!!!!!!

Forgetting!!!

Never say goodbye because goodbye means forgetting and forgetting means never seeing u again!